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This is the end.

And I wanted to let my ending thoughts free, by writing them below. Have a bit more fun (?) and let me summarize, and get to know my quest better. I recently noticed, that when I give my wants and needs an outer form, simultaneously dissecting my thoughts, something connects with the Universe and what I need, is given to me.
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(THAT'S RELATIVELY A "LOT" OF TEXT - 88 sentences)

Much had to happen, for me to become able to share such story. Now it is close to three years from the time I started; long way I walked, now a way more to go.

In the beginning, all I had was a faint pull towards something else from what I've known, fuelled by scarce memories of moments providing proof that indeed, something was within me.

From my current perspective, I see how tremendously I needed to grow mentally, how deep in the darkness I was... So it makes me glad, that I already became the person I was striving to be. This required dedication, and often feeling lost in the process. Aloneness.

Nothing else attracted me; I knew if I somehow one day managed, my quality of life would be of space-like levels. I was given only one life to live; I desired it to be different and purposeful, suited to my individual needs, facilitating the nourishment of my gifts.

I am INFPt, and generally, my mind goes brrrrrr all the time. We are idealistic individuals that wish to save the world... And let us be honest, the one we get to habitat starts to become quite creepy... I may not be able to do much, but I feel that an appropriately presented group of ideas with a fun twist has the potential to go on a long run.

Now I start to get more of this slowly, but surely mindset. I need to provide for myself (and my family in the future) in a broader perspective.

We get to live in such strange times. Our constant advancement and the products it brings shape our lives in a way, that doesn't correspond to the environments we truly came from. So much is possible, a simple person never had access to such gear, software, and groundbreaking no-code tools. When you do have an idea, nowadays, you can do pretty much anything. But only if you want; you will find the knowledge. Are you able to: want like this?

All that surrounds us is an effect of a historical mix of events and their outcomes, learned lessons, and passed knowledge. Need to control. Struggles for power, generational traumas. The way we acted afterwards, who got to be decisive, and what motives drove them. Our world is an effect of advancement following rebuilding after two wars, times of tension generation before them and division after. It is what it is, this is our reality. Let's accept it, let's try to use what we have in order to become our true and natural selves, for future’s sake.

All that is around was initially a thought coming from a place of learned experience. Finally I got to use some of my trained abilities of tinkering with programs that do something, which I gained through engineering studies and later working as a process engineer in a foundry making aluminium castings. So, well. If they could, I can too, and of course you can as well. The ideas were brought to life through various production processes, that's what knowledge is for.

So I assume that I am free to do all I wish. If I operate within the bounds of the law and when I do not hurt anyone, I can proceed further. I like tinkering, sitting with cerebral activity regarding a concerned matter, and making progress. To be able to do more is what I strive for now. From the moment I saw Webflow, I knew that learning it offered the possibility of bringing my own ideas to life. And that matters because, momentarily, the only piece of "land" I can afford is an internet domain, hehe! :D

Generally, by doing this website, I proved myself right, but I feel it's still a surface type of knowledge compared to potential. In the future, I'd like to create some websites for other artists and sustainable businesses. There is a probability of an attempt to create a sort of creative community, existing within a designed ecosystem, built (with some aid) by myself, and within the possibility that comes out of having specific knowledge about a given process. Purpose? Probably something bigger.

A lot could change If I had my time free to use for my purposes, and when I would be providing for myself with my art and thought processes. This brand of magicfulCOLORS is meant to be a mean to an end, as mentioned above.

I like to talk, and I feel some things need to be said out loud by me. A great way to capture moments and emotions is music. For a long time, and presently as well, I meander somewhere close but never get to grip it to start retaining knowledge. Freed-up time and energy could serve this cause. First, I needed to provide foundations for all that will come after, this website is the first pillar serving this very intention.

And there is of course art... ...but... ...what... ...about... ...it?

From my current standpoint (04.10.24 02:17), I perceive the future with uncertainty, a lot can happen, and often one event can change so much. Will I be able to recognize what's right in these upcoming moments? Will I meet the right people, recognize them among the rest? Will I find myself in dysfunctional relationships? Will any echo from the past halt me? It all doesn't have to be fast. Slowly, but surely.

In the beginning, I used to imagine grand things, and then mock myself for them. Persistently, I did what I had to use my free time to contribute to a bigger good. That is a life where these grand things are reality. A life within a supportive environment, having fulfilling and fruitful relations with like-minded individuals. Turning ideas into reality. That's my biggest good.

Lush sounds, a blanket of some good vibes thrown onto the crowd. If Climate Change takes some of what's out there, I'd like to digitally preserve some for the next generation and the ones after. There is so much to keep!

Slowly coming to an end, I'd like to mention the fact that by making this website, I intended to offer proof of my dedication, and willingness to put in work while striving to create my own level, where no one will be in power to reach for my independence. I do not look for a job, but cooperation of varied sorts.

I wish to have a pool of possibilities for choosing what to focus on in a moment that's in front. A way to say that I want to have many things to do, which at some point could support actions executed when growing a different project. All interconnected to provide support. It's one of the grand thoughts. We'll see what the future brings.

The grandest part of my mental energy that was spent on hundreds, maybe thousands of hours spent working the way I could, is going to be soon freed up. Ohh, what a relief, of course, mixed with anxiousness.

There is simply nothing else quite like this...

I tried to deliver the best work possible, to maximize my chances of success. I strained myself to develop and provide value for the external and internal worlds.

I went past my personal Rubicon, and now all and nothing is possible.

SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE!. haha :D